Sunday, August 25

Something of an Update Continued

I've been looking through old blog posts, and here: ( I found one called "Something of an Update".  For the sake of science, I've decided to update my post "something of an update".

10 Things today that have made me happy:
-Sleeping past 6 for the first time in weeks.
-Wearing a new shirt in my favorite colors.
-Cloudy grayness.
-Seeing Gros at church and feeling like she was happy to see me too.
-My lovely new computer.  :)
-Making pudding on the rice.
-Fixing and updating my tablet, Wesley.
-FINALLY remembering to pay tithing.
-Talking at length with Rose (who was sleeping under our lilac bush) about how she is getting ready to move on, and won't it be exciting, and I'll miss you.

10 Things that make me anxious:
-Sleeping past 6 for the first time in weeks.  (Yes.)
-Needing to get a car.
-Moroni starting at Zubs this week.
-Leslie moving away and having a hard time.
-Moroni's costume (aughhh one week!)
-Trying to budget and organize my finances.
-Lost my CSB key.
-Unfinished projects before school starts.
-Still trying to get all my books/professors STILL not posting book lists.
-Hard times that my friends and family are going through.  

10 Things I'm excited for:
-Almost done at CSB.
-Moroni starting at Zubs this week.
-Playing Skyrim.
-Seeing certain people.
-Working at the temple as an ordinance worker!  (6:25-11:00 Saturdays)
-Doing family history.
-Hanging out with Jareth on Labor Day.
-Taking Yoga.
-Ward FHE tomorrow.

Thursday, August 22

Work and Being Alone With My Thoughts

I work in a packaging facility.  So an average day will be:

7:00-9:00 -- Putting shrink bands on the tops of bottles.
9:00-9:15 -- Break.
9:15-11:30 -- Putting bottles on a conveyor belt.
11:30-12:00 -- Lunch
12:00-1:45 -- Putting bottles in boxes.
1:45-2:00 -- Break.
2:00-3:30 -- Putting shrink bands on the tops of bottles.

The jobs will rotate at random, but those three things are pretty much my duties.  I can't complain, because I am grateful for a job and one that I can do inside while wearing scrubs.  Needless to say, though, I have a LOT of time to think.  We aren't allowed headphones, and a majority of the people who work there speak mostly Spanish, so I don't have much opportunity to chat with others.  So I just get lost in my thoughts and fantasies.

I've tried to analyze how I spend my time "thinking".  What thoughts are productive?  Which are not?  Has anyone ever thought about this?


I just remembered in The Wee Free Men by Terry Pratchett: the main character Tiffany Aching recognizes within herself "third thoughts".  Meaning, we have first thoughts, second thoughts, and third thoughts.  (You will likely recognize the second.)  Wikipedia says the following:

As a witch, Tiffany possesses First Sight, the ability to see 'what is really there' (as opposed to Second sight, which shows people what they think ought to be there). She also possesses Second Thoughts, which are defined as 'the thoughts you think about the way you think'. Whilst other witches are said to have this trait as well, Tiffany also recognizes some of her thoughts as Third Thoughts, (the thoughts you think about the way you think about the way you think,) and Fourth Thoughts, (the thoughts you think about the way you think about the way you think about the way you think.) All these thoughts sometimes cause Tiffany to walk into doorframes.

I think I'm a witch.  

(By the way, I highly recommend that book.  I have the illustrated version if you'd like to borrow it.)

I spend a great deal of time thinking about what I think, and now I'm thinking about what I'm thinking about the way I think.


Topics of thought (in no specific order):

  • Whatever I'm currently reading.
  • The temple ordinances.
  • What I want to buy with the money I'm making.
  • What I have to buy with the money I'm making.
  • I may get married in the next few years.
  • Food.
  • Etc.
Anyways, this was another useless post brought to you by Beth.  :)

Monday, August 12

Marriage Voices

As recently returned missionaries of any gender, we are stereotypically expected to wed within the year of our return.  I feared this greatly my whole mission.  BUT...

I will say with surprise and uncertainty, that the ONLY person who has encouraged me to look for a husband since I got home was an elderly sealer I met in the Jordan River temple.  

I guess I am meant to make my own decisions again.  Boooo.  Frankly though, there are some pretty important reasons why I cannot get married until at LEAST 2015.  

For example:

I need to find someone who is not TOTALLY weird who will wear a kilt.  (I assume this may mean an extended period of time IN Scotland, b/c many of the well-meaning kilt wearers in this country are a little too strange.)

I want to get married in this temple... which will not be finished until 2015.

I worked hard to cultivate this attitude on my mission.  Part of me can't get over it.

This one speaks for itself.

So there you have it.  My rationale for things.  Let's see what happens to me NOW.  

Friday, August 2


Today Moroni asked me if we were "BFFL"s.  He pronounced it how it is spelled.  Say it now.  If you sound like you got punched in the stomach and you're going to hurl, you've got it exactly right.

I gave him a look.

He gave me a look.  His looks are better than mine.  He is 17.

He explained to me that it means "best friends for life."


But I told him we were.  :)

Emma just gave me a guitar.  WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH IT?!