I wish I understood how goals and habits really work. I feel like I can set a goal to establish a good habit a billion times over and then, suddenly, it will click. I'll start living up to it. I'll feel good/proud of myself for having the strength to change.
And then it will stop. Something will turn off. It's like there is a dashboard in my brain and the little Beths inside randomly get bored of having a particular goal turned on, so one of them will flip it back off. And this "change" I hoped to see in myself - and had seen for many months - is gone. I go back to how I was before.
Have you ever experienced this? Sometimes I feel as though I don't really have power over myself at all. This is particularly true of exercise, and good study habits (school or scriptural).
Here are things I feel like I've permanently changed about myself by setting goals and keeping up with them:
- Flossing regularly
. . . a little depressing. But interesting. How on earth did this get on that list? And where is everything else? Is there anything else? I can't think of anything . . .
Here is a different list, things I've seen myself change for a month or more, but that haven't lasted beyond 4 months:
- Exercising regularly
- Eating a balanced/controlled diet
- Avoiding "time-wasting" internet activities
- Writing regularly in a journal
- Doing all the reading for my classes
- Spending less/budgeting
- Visiting/writing loved ones
- Spending time studying family history
- Scriptures/prayer/etc (you know the drill)
- Seeing old friends more often
- Probably everything else.
- Think before I speak, and never speak critically to or of others.
Really, I am currently working a lot of random things and - to some degree - everything above. I guess ultimately I have a goal to see myself clearly and to not feel negatively for all the habits I pick up and drop. Because, sad as it is that I stop doing good things, at least I did them (and reaped the benefits) for a little while . . .
How do you feel about goal setting? What habits have you been able to successfully establish in your life?